Disheartening. Draining. Disappointing. Did not feel I was being heard - my needs were not being understood. Therapists fail to educate patients on which school of thought they practice from (in general) - would feel 'safer' if we could plan out a course of action together, that never happens. Often felt therapists were overwhelmed by the severity of my depression - referral to a psychiatrist became predictable, another way of saying " I can't deal with you, so let's medicate you" despite my regurgitating years of failed psychotropic endeavours.
Apologies for disjointed nature of my post - just tired. Depressed. I have been in and out of therapy for years. I have yet to find a therapist I find competent and capable enough to be able to help me, or at least contain me. I'm just another number, just another case. It becomes a very expensive shoulder to cry on with little to no significant insight.